guitar today, maybe??? who knows.

so things have changed, quite simply. Different situation than before, one which I did not want, but I guess I'm stuck with it for another year before it disappears...and after that? nothing, because by then I will be someone else. maybe? well, considering that next year almost all of my close friends WILL be gone, yes...things will change. year after? I'm done. I will be alone! but oh well.

I sent out one nasty email to two friends last night, but that moment has passed, thank god, and I'm looking over things. Though almost everything in that email is true, I'm pretty sure I'll live. and of course, I had a dream of him last night, one that just seemed to rub itself in my face the entire time, since it was a dream that will never be, now I know.

Other than those little bits of nonsense? Nothing really. I'll just start torturing myself about where things started to change and how. who wouldn't do that though, right?
I'm a 16-year-old girl who doesn't have the brain capacity to carry this stuff yet, so why should I try to ignore it and not try to sort through it bit by painful bit? Impossible to ignore it anyway...

oh well. nothing else. I wrote more to a song this morning, not long after i woke up (after my shower, actually). and aparently I have a cool room. woot!

adios for now
Ni mel Latye
te adoro
get lost!