first day back. wow.

Ever had that feeling when your having fun with friends and you can't help but feel this horrible emptiness underneath it all, like the floor is made of egg shells, and it could collapse at any moment? i felt that today a lot. shouldn't, but did. but you know what? I think I might survive!
musical theatre will be awesome, i already know that. just the right people in it, the right chemistry, it will be awesome. general social science is alright too. then LUNCH and MSIP in the music room (score!) with the same people, and then english. oi. what a bland end to the day.....but i think it will be alright.

so, despite having a very fun day, there was that depressing and very unreassuring feeling undertoning it, which brings you down pretty far near the end of the day. and it doesn't help that when you get home, you need to write out two things, work on some idiots map for your mother, and make a dinner to eat alone. wow. I'm going to suck out on my own!
why do I have that feeling, a concerned person might ask (as if theres one reading this)? too bad. you have to live without knowing
buahahahaha.
oh come on...


guess!


just guess. typical teenage girl problem that every one of us has.


oh god, must I spell it out?
b
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problems. duh.
my problem? i'm not the girl someone will date. I turn into their pal, and then its a little too wierd to be dating a friend, right? oof. it sucks! a Load! very limiting. unfortunatly, i can't seem to figure out how to become a possible date rather than a cool bud. i have a problem there. that and I think I look/act too much like a boy. heh. that could be a problem...
too bad. buh, as I would say in other, older days.

well, thats all for now. must get to work on things.
bye for now