Half an hour to go before my feet endure yet another hell at work. woot.
Monday will officially be called Emily's Bipolar Mood day. why? guess.
Its sad! I JUST got a job, and already I don't want to work. I'm so lazy! All I want to do is stay home and let my brain sleep. but no, I have to be wide awake to remember stuff, prices, counting shite, keep charge of gas. Theres something about having to work behind a till that bugs me in a busy store. if it was a wee little store that people hardly pay attention to, such as one WITHOUT gas pumps, i would be great. but so many people go in there to get almost everything you can think of. we sell hats, for christs sake! people come in asking for 32$ of 649 with encore.... what the f***? other people who just want change for the laundromat. remember to bring change! err, quit wasting my time counting. I was fine with formulas in math, but simple math? pfff, as if.
errrrrr. i hate busy places. I AM ANTI SOCIAL, and working in a busy convenient store is not a place where I should be. Up on stage? thats fine. no interacting with the audience, hardly. playing guitar? fine. they listen, they dont ask much of you other than for you to entertain. but to talk to these people who I don't know, remember prices, arg! i don't like that. I don't like being seen all the time. I like being invisible, believe it or not, no matter how much I complain sometimes. I can't believe the job this is doing on my head. that evil thing is visiting me more often than ever now, and its not just in the morning anymore. its always there, this constant fear of being in the open with people I don't know, who are always judging me because I'm the new girl, who are always glaring at me. its fucking me up!
I'm hoping that I get used to this. if I dont, I think I'll need meds or something, frig.
so tomorrow at school should be interesting. first day back after a full shift. oo.
im already tired.
well, I should get ready for crap stuff. man, why couldn't it be an out of the way place where no one goes? why does it have to be so popular?!?!?!?!?!
im just lazy
Monday will officially be called Emily's Bipolar Mood day. why? guess.
Its sad! I JUST got a job, and already I don't want to work. I'm so lazy! All I want to do is stay home and let my brain sleep. but no, I have to be wide awake to remember stuff, prices, counting shite, keep charge of gas. Theres something about having to work behind a till that bugs me in a busy store. if it was a wee little store that people hardly pay attention to, such as one WITHOUT gas pumps, i would be great. but so many people go in there to get almost everything you can think of. we sell hats, for christs sake! people come in asking for 32$ of 649 with encore.... what the f***? other people who just want change for the laundromat. remember to bring change! err, quit wasting my time counting. I was fine with formulas in math, but simple math? pfff, as if.
errrrrr. i hate busy places. I AM ANTI SOCIAL, and working in a busy convenient store is not a place where I should be. Up on stage? thats fine. no interacting with the audience, hardly. playing guitar? fine. they listen, they dont ask much of you other than for you to entertain. but to talk to these people who I don't know, remember prices, arg! i don't like that. I don't like being seen all the time. I like being invisible, believe it or not, no matter how much I complain sometimes. I can't believe the job this is doing on my head. that evil thing is visiting me more often than ever now, and its not just in the morning anymore. its always there, this constant fear of being in the open with people I don't know, who are always judging me because I'm the new girl, who are always glaring at me. its fucking me up!
I'm hoping that I get used to this. if I dont, I think I'll need meds or something, frig.
so tomorrow at school should be interesting. first day back after a full shift. oo.
im already tired.
well, I should get ready for crap stuff. man, why couldn't it be an out of the way place where no one goes? why does it have to be so popular?!?!?!?!?!
im just lazy
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