yeah, i jinxed myself.
wasn't a HAPPY GREAT day today, just...a day. stupid days. i hate days. days are pointless. so pointless, i wish there were no such thing.

tired, bored out of my mind, and wishing i could play guitar and actually sound GOOD at it. i wish i had an electric! gark! Stupid money.

so you know what? I am a Tomboy. Such a tomboy, I'm amazed Im not just lesbian or something. it really boggles me! HA! hows that for a subject? -Why Emily isn't Gay..
lol. am I scaring anyone? hope so!
nono, nothing to worry of course, just me being stupid, is all. its just something thats gone through the head recently. I have recently tried to listen to myself, and realized just how wierd i really sound. I sound like...well, very different from what I thought. I don't know where my voice is from. Im still trying to figure out what sort of voice I have, both normal and song-wise, and in doing so I started wondering why i acted like a boy so much.
I guess i just hate other girls!
lol.
why wouldn't I? pardon the fact that I'm going to put myself down, but deal with it. I am NOT a pretty girl. not to me, at least. so, what do I do? I try the best NOT to be a girl, but to be...well, i guess I'm a tomboy. thats the only way to explain it.
man. I have such a retarded style. I'm wierd!....lol.
well, as a friend put it, I'm mature in a different way from others, so that makes me sort of on the borderline of something. i wonder what that is?
I guess I am the real-life anybodys, only not trying to get into any gang.

wellwellwell......sososo......emily is bored. emily needs a life......emily needs to be shot-
any volunteers????
i thought so

well, time to go and do something, like sleep maybe, or watch the tube, or....-gasp- why didn't I think of that before???
i could WRITE! jeez, that would be useful and constructive! what have i been wasting time for? man!
adios!