I always cave

Today I received a package from the Emily Carr Art Institute in BC. I read over it, and it certainly has a lot. I would definately be busy there....

but there's the problem of the portfolio. they want 15-20 pieces of work (including a sketchbook I don't have) thats either 2x3x1/2 feet, on CDs, or Slides....

I had the opportunity to do this in art class a year ago. but I didn't. I didn't think I would do it.

I would love to go there, just to Go Somewhere. but then I think "Am I actually going to use my time there well? am I really going work?"

it costs about 17000 for eight months. that leaves four months for me to come home and relax, not too bad. its money. its the portfolio. then the fact that my art is spread out of a large area, and there's getting the slides done.

well, tomorrow, I plan on buying new brushes, and easle, and some canvas. and I will start to paint. I promise. its set. while I'm at it, I'll stop by the school, get my Tree back, and talk to Mr.Campbell about making slides.

if I go, I will aim for spending my time in

-painting
-3D art
-photography.

the foundation year sounds like fucking hell though! 40-50 hours a week of homework. HOMEWORK. FUUUUCK

i hate school

is all that money going to be worth it? am I going to get lazy? what do I do?
then there's the distance....

oh, what do I do?? i wish there was an easy way to do this! FRIGGEN HELL...
but maybe i'll try anyway. i guess.