You know, it's a difficult thing, to want to say something as simple as "I miss you", and have it be so complicated.
Sure, a friend can say to another friend "I miss you!"... but it usually only works out well is they are of the same sex.
as soon as it comes to a Boy-Girl friendship, platonic I suppose, things get murky. You say "I miss you" to your friend, who's off living his life, whats to keep him from wondering "does she like me or something?"
and that's not something I would want him to wonder about, contrary to popular behaviour amongst fellow females.

I just don't like being so inhibited. thats why I changed my Blog address. I had no idea who reading it anymore, so I changed, gave it to a couple people, asked them NOT to pass it around, and now I have a better idea of who is (or ISN'T) reading it. Now I can write things like this.

Without him reading about it.
we don't need him reading about himself, or the feelings of yet another woman towards him.

guh.

I just wish I could say "I miss you" without it turning out weird.
I with I could express myself, without people second guessing it, looking for alternate objectives. I don't exactly have any objectives here.
If I did, it would be to avoid this at all costs.
hence celibacy...

I'm done.