you know what sucks?
NOT getting something done.
right now, nothing in my life is complete. EVERYTHING is left out in the open, unfinished and annoying as hell.

surgery today? no, just a bunch of needles.
see, i was hoping that they WOULDN'T just drain my cyst, but they did. they pumped it with freezing stuff (and holy shit that killed like a bitch) and then drained it. THERES STILL A FUCKING BUMP. WAY TO GET RID OF IT. Now I have to wait a few more weeks for mom to call the doctor back, after the bump has gotten HUGE again, and then another few months before I get REAL surgery.
jesus.
at least its smaller again, i suppose, but its been hurting so much. all day its been aching like mad. I should have left it alone, then it wouldn't have hurt so friggen much.
god damnit! I'm pissed off now. I wanted it TAKEN OUT, not emptied so that its sort of small and will slowly grow back.
fuck, it hurt! that freezing stuff, man, it was just this horrible pressure in my wrist that didn't end until he took the needle out and stuck a bigger one in to take out the gel in there.
that was interesting. I know what it looks like now. Its just clear gel. cool.
but the rest of today sucked.
I'm feeling sick from my throat, I didn't get my wrist REALLY fixed, just put off more and more, and i'm tired so much and sick of reading and homework.
What puts me out is the fact that I waited MONTHS for this thing to be -key words- TAKEN OUT, and after all that waiting I just wasted another day. I COULD have gone to school, but didn't, and instead am stuck living with this thing for even longer. GOD. what a STUPID waste of my time.

but, on the plus side, I went to MacDonalds on the way home and then got a Distortion pedel. Awesome one, too. its hippy-looking. i love it.
what a shitty day.
what a WASTED day. What a fucking waste of time though. jesus. I could have drained it myself, for christ's sake, instead of a doctor telling me stuff I ALREADY knew...but no. they didn't want to operate this time.
fine.
be that way.
i'm still mad.

GRRRR!!!!!!! GA! i hate people. i want to sleep, but when I wake up it will be tomorrow, and tomorrow will suck even more because I have this STUPID trip to fucking loyalist all day about MORE doctor shit, and then i have to work, and I just don't want to. I hate the world, and the world hates me.