ALRIGHT

enough of this shit.

ok, WHOOP DE DOO, i got high for once. ok, so?
so what?
yes, i understand, people will think lower of me - what people? - but should I really care? its me who got stoned for, lets say, learning purposes (curiosity, come on!), not a bunch of friggen nuns or monks or something! WHERE is the big deal? When did I say "Drugs are completely dumb and retarded" without that bit of sarcasm in it? when would i say something about something i know nothing about? if I did, well i went back on my word, but i dont remember.

fir cripes sake, i got high. so? I'm not hooked on Heroin, or Cocaine, or even friggen cigarettes. I tried something! SO WHAT? I'm sorry, but Aren't I entitled to try things for my own opinion? aren't I allowed to go by my own experience and not everyone elses?

I didn't get high to get even with anyone, or to get pity, or because I was in a shitty mood. i got high because I wanted to, ok? I wanted to know how it really feels, to actually KNOW, not guess. I wanted to know.
Am I sticking with it? i dont know! its new, i'm thinking about it! its an experience and I'm thinking about it still. I fucking hate those damn assumptions made with people who get high. One time, and you're a completely different person. How does that work? does weed make something in your brain click that changes your entire personality, style, appearance, and vibe? what is it?
If I am not mistaken, isn't Bram, according to modern terms, a "stoner"? ok....wheres the difference? my opinion of him didn't change after i found out, so why is it that when I TRY it, suddenly I'm not Emily, I'm someone else, I'm some bad person who everyone should be ashamed of? WHY is it like that?

am I a stereotype now?