If I were a Paranoid Paradox....

I am His total opposite, but I decide to try him instead, not the one I have more in common with. I'm going against the grain as hard as possible, when I actually have another option... and I'm going to lose this game, even if I went the other way. I'm going to ruin another friendship because of my change and actions. And that leaves me here, as usual, alone, as usual, without any sort of comfort that can empathize... and empathy is the greatest comfort, next to being left alone. I'm paranoid of the other people in my boat, and the people I can talk to are on land, and aren't even waving at me, though they see me. Now I'm just waiting for the tide to come in or out, to get my other leg in the boat, see if I actually sit in any particular spot, if I'm a category, text-book example.