I brushed my teeth about ten minutes ago, and all the while my body was asking me, "Why are we up this early? Why didn't we keep sleeping? We still had a while to sleep, didn't we? until lunch, right???????????whats going ON?????????"
and my response?
"Shhh, you'll wake up mom"

why AM I up this early. I don't feel like I'm going to school, I don't feel awake... but I guess I never really fell asleep either... well, I passed out at 1:30, or around there, and woke up at 5:30 by accident... then my alarm finally went off... now I'm here, waiting for it to say 6:30, so I can go, wait for my bus and time the exact moment it DOES pick me up.. assuming it doesn't arrive before I get to my stop, a 7 minute walke from here.

my eyes are sticky. not open, not closed. it's suppose to rain, be windy, everything I don't really want it to be. no, it's not a happy day today. I'm not thinking. I'm a machine, already, going to a social institution to be socialized to the point of perfection... for society. hah.

yeah, fuck you society, I enjoy sleeping in until lunch, staying up until 2, I enjoy that stuff. why? because You think it's not right. and, because no ones home, and I'm not awake during those pointless morning hours.

well, all in all, I'm afraid to leave this house today. but guess what.....