so, that essay I wasn't going to do?
i have to do it.
so i'll do it. with great difficulty. i'm supposed to be doing it now... but... as you can see...

remember that problem last semester? with focus? and understanding the POINT of this?
yeah... it never left, i guess. I came close to just sitting in a corner on my own today. for some reason, today was bad. test second period that i had forgotten about... ummm... fuck. I didn't even think of it. and its not good. i BSed my way through it, and... fuck. i can't do anything. i couldn't remember a thing. i had forgotten everything. thoughts were coming to my head, but they had nothing to do with the test. i tried to remember. but i gave up eventually, wrote down my name, and handed it in.
then a macbeth test. but... that was better. we got to have the script with us. that helps, believe me.

i'm very tired. i would go to bed right now, if i didn't have this essay. not a good day. just not a good day... alas....

emily is not happy tonight.