...later....

Yeah, I just decided to re-read a couple posts from Last new years...
funny how little you change, and yet your mindset seems like it's on a completely dfferent wave-length. A whole different person wrote that, one year ago. so much changed. I made similar resolutions, but this year I made sure they remained Vague and without any deadlines. Just.. something to THINK about this year. God.... I went into 2005 thinking so many things, and this year, so many of those thoughts are gone, or changed... dead or dying.
I read about Josh. I forgot about him. I'm forgetting him. I'm forgetting a lot of people. People are starting to slip out of my life now. and that's what happens in life, isn't it? People slip away, to be forgotten, to forget you. I die everytime I forget someone. just a little bit.

Maybe that's why the idea of "feeling" seems so far off this year. Maybe that's why I can't seem to tap into those Emotions I was being overwhelmed with a year ago. Because they're dying away with the people who brought them on? I don't know...

Calista feels that this year is going to be good, and I agree with her. In the year that's passed, I've gone through some changes. I feel very very different, I can't explain it... but while 2006 is going to be good, It's not going to be easy for me. This new year is completely hidden from me. I can't tell what kind of year this will be...
maybe that's a good thing?