tired...

I'm tired...
what a day. I'm just plain tired, so nothing really stood out.
my peddle has a buzz in it, so i guess theres a bad connection. Also? My fingers hurt right now while I'm typing from guitar. I've been playing like mad, trying to figure out this damn thing.... well, i finished for now...
so tiiirrreeeeddddd....
mutter mutter. yeah. so. when you're tired, everything seems a lot duller and stupid than it really is. there were a few times today when I was going to perk up, but then I thought better of it. no one else really seemed to be there today, so i wasn't alone. oi vay.
I've come to the conclusion that I really AM pathetic. lately, when it comes to mental processes, actions, etc, I've been stupid and very stupid....?.... I make FUN of people who act like i have the last little while, so naturally i'm being even more stupid trying to avoid acting stupid.... which makes it rather stupid in itself. stupid stupid. i am ashamed of myself. i'm stuuupid. I'm a wench.
other than that little bit of self-criticism, which isn't unhealthy unless you do it way too often. i'm thinking i should jack the volume on that. i've been letting loose WAY too much, in my own mind. don't ask.

arg. so confusing and yet so simple! can't seem to make sense out of the most simple things lately. just sooo laaazy and tiiiiirreeeeddddd......... gark.
well, thats all for today, i suppose.

note to self: remember Coffee House stuff.

Word of the Day: tired