Back yet again
so i heard that G was getting a CD with the background music for West Side....THANK GOD! WE MIGHT NOT DIE AFTERALL!
thats really what made my day, other than not getting home until....fifteen minutes ago.... yes. I was at Mrs.Davis's house, 'visitting'. I was really just watching TV. it was nice, really. first time i had been to someone elses house OTHER than emmas. it was fun though...if fun means better than being at home and not bad at the same time. it was alright, i guess.
yeahyeah, i was happy, NOT being home with these...people....i live with.
I'm trying to think of an intro for a debate, and (of course) I can't. I'm a conclusion person, not an INTRO person! jesus. its so hard to think of how to start something. I can't get points across or anything. friggers!
anyway, i'm tired, exhausted, content though i shouldn't be, and yeah...
projects are a bitch. I feel like im trying to get through things, but at the same time, i feel like i'm constantly being pulled back into shit i don't want to be in.
im paranoid, what can I say? i had a good night, for once, an exceptional day in general, and yes. I'm not too scared of the musical anymore, since i heard about the whole CD thing. thank god for Mr.G sometimes..
i need to start packing for Missisauga, and i need money, jeeeeeez! tomorrow morning, i must leave early and stop by the bank, get money... and yeah. I need to figure out how to deposit my check too. SHIT. friday morning ill go back early, again.
headache.
i'm happy.
why? private, but still happy anyway. I'm going to see MICKEY! FINALLY! god i miss it out there. there, i am staying with people who i love and who love me back just as much. i miss that so much.
fuck, i miss love in general. and to think, i've never actually been IN it with someone. great. i was happy, and now I wish i had a fucking boyfriend.
emily wants a hug.
emily is having a shitty friend time.
this morning i get online and read an email from emma, and it hurt so much. I knew this sort of thing would happen...but what can i do? i'm waiting for something to happen, because I don't want to take charge of this 'ordeal' thing. im too tired, and sad and happy, and everything.
man, who am i?
i am not the person i was a month ago. nono, i am not. something has clicked, and i have no idea if its drugs or just... things. oh my god, things have changed. things are changing. holy fuck its scary. i could cry right now, i could. i'm not depressed, im fucking scared.
wow.
i dont know where those things came from.
thats wierd. i hate it when that happens. but its true. I am not the person i was a month ago. I am a new person, and I feel completely alone, just like anyone would at the start of something.
new life.
anyway, i should stop and work on stupid APS...god. i hate this class. i'm going to fail, i can just feel it. all these gay projects that aren't teaching me shit about anything. theres another scary thought.
yeah, i need love.
LOL
thats pathetic
adios amigos...?
so i heard that G was getting a CD with the background music for West Side....THANK GOD! WE MIGHT NOT DIE AFTERALL!
thats really what made my day, other than not getting home until....fifteen minutes ago.... yes. I was at Mrs.Davis's house, 'visitting'. I was really just watching TV. it was nice, really. first time i had been to someone elses house OTHER than emmas. it was fun though...if fun means better than being at home and not bad at the same time. it was alright, i guess.
yeahyeah, i was happy, NOT being home with these...people....i live with.
I'm trying to think of an intro for a debate, and (of course) I can't. I'm a conclusion person, not an INTRO person! jesus. its so hard to think of how to start something. I can't get points across or anything. friggers!
anyway, i'm tired, exhausted, content though i shouldn't be, and yeah...
projects are a bitch. I feel like im trying to get through things, but at the same time, i feel like i'm constantly being pulled back into shit i don't want to be in.
im paranoid, what can I say? i had a good night, for once, an exceptional day in general, and yes. I'm not too scared of the musical anymore, since i heard about the whole CD thing. thank god for Mr.G sometimes..
i need to start packing for Missisauga, and i need money, jeeeeeez! tomorrow morning, i must leave early and stop by the bank, get money... and yeah. I need to figure out how to deposit my check too. SHIT. friday morning ill go back early, again.
headache.
i'm happy.
why? private, but still happy anyway. I'm going to see MICKEY! FINALLY! god i miss it out there. there, i am staying with people who i love and who love me back just as much. i miss that so much.
fuck, i miss love in general. and to think, i've never actually been IN it with someone. great. i was happy, and now I wish i had a fucking boyfriend.
emily wants a hug.
emily is having a shitty friend time.
this morning i get online and read an email from emma, and it hurt so much. I knew this sort of thing would happen...but what can i do? i'm waiting for something to happen, because I don't want to take charge of this 'ordeal' thing. im too tired, and sad and happy, and everything.
man, who am i?
i am not the person i was a month ago. nono, i am not. something has clicked, and i have no idea if its drugs or just... things. oh my god, things have changed. things are changing. holy fuck its scary. i could cry right now, i could. i'm not depressed, im fucking scared.
wow.
i dont know where those things came from.
thats wierd. i hate it when that happens. but its true. I am not the person i was a month ago. I am a new person, and I feel completely alone, just like anyone would at the start of something.
new life.
anyway, i should stop and work on stupid APS...god. i hate this class. i'm going to fail, i can just feel it. all these gay projects that aren't teaching me shit about anything. theres another scary thought.
yeah, i need love.
LOL
thats pathetic
adios amigos...?
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