I'm so old!

I guess I'm turning into a softie. Me, the girl who sits through CSI without flinching.... today, she flinched. ope.
It was an older episode, where the baby is left in the car in 109 farhenheit (sp?) and dies from it. I guess it doesn't help that I'm actually attatched to a baby now. not mine, but I love her all the same. We got photos of her today. Aww, baby Ava. I love her to death. it would kill me if anything happened to her. and I guess I had a moment of weakness when I watched the episode and imagined that happening...
ugh.

I'm looking at india. and going there. alone. for maybe a month, little less. I'm looking at buddhist pilgrimages.
http://www.buddhist-pilgrimage.com/
http://www.incredibleindiatour.com/pilgrimage-travel-in-india/buddhist-pilgrimages-in-india.html

eventually, maybe tomorrow, i'll start looking into this a lot more seriously. I guess it would require my passport being done and what not... alas... such a pain in the ass.
but anyway...

thats me for today