Propane

How weird...

One moment, I'm getting sex advice from my boss, just having fun with it. the next, I'm being asked out by a fucking Carnie. GROSS. and kind of odd, how it all happened within a day.

then I go a buy a ring to wear on my left ring finger, to scare that sort of thing off. then-

One moment, I'm looking at Bachelor apartments in Ottawa, the next I'm being offered a space with Joel (first time talking to him in a month).

For some reason, I'm getting the feeling that this is a very purposeful week. shit happens this week. or so it feels, at least. It's strange. I haven't had this sort of week in a long time, where things just happen! Like last night. I went to the mall to get a case for my camera and some music, and BAM! first I see Veronika, then Mike. and suddenly I'm at the mall all night, buying a ring and music and food and shit. it's like, these random turns I'm taking are having results. small results, but... it's just nice to have that, I guess. to do something that you think will only last an hour, that will be boring and lonely, and suddenly have a couple friends around, having laughs, lasting until 9 at night. I love that feeling. I guess it may very well end today, but you never know.

maybe it's a sign for me to start PAINTING.

I'm trying to get the urge. I'm trying to get in the mood for it. but it's so hard. i'd rather sit in my hole and watch TV, because i'm addicted now. what a shame.

so, this week has been odd. I'm wondering if it will change, now that I'm thinking about it, or if it will just keep getting better. The whole purpose of this week, I guess, is people. relationships. something I've neglected a lot int he recent past, I know. Well, maybe this is my wake-up week, the week that says "start paying attention to people around you". maybe. thats how I'm interpretting it right now, at least. or maybe thats whats on my conscience.

well, either way...

today is my last day off. it's the first day of the fair. what can I do? so many possibilities. and yet, no drive.