Thanks-giving

I'm thankful for having a night that I get to be alive for.
I'm thankful for being able to see these people, even if I don't interact with a lot of them very much.
I'm thankful I get to see them happy, even if I'm not.
I'm thankful they're willing to let me in, and laugh with me, even if they're actually laughing at me.
I'm thankful I can feel pain.
I'm thankful I'm alive to feel anything, even if it's pain.

I'm thankful he's happy, without me.
I'm thankful they get to drink
without me.
I'm thankful they let me in
briefly.
I'm thankful I was ever there
partially.
I'm thankful I was distracted
by the obvious.

I'm thankful I'm alive to see tomorrow.
I'm thankful that tomorrow may be a better day than today, or yesterday, or tomorrows tomorrows.
I'm thankful I can still speak
I'm thankful I can hold my tongue.
I'm thankful I can block out all harsh words.
I'm thankful I still hear them, nevertheless.
I'm thankful I can close my eyes from what scares me.
I'm thankful I see those things in my dreams.
I'm thankful I can dream.
I'm thankful for nightmares.

I'm thankful for a beating heart,
despite it being broken.
I'm thankful for an imagination,
despite the headaches I'm left with.
I'm thankful I was able to get out tonight,
even though I had to go home early.
I'm thankful he hugged me,
even if it meant nothing.
I'm thankful I hugged him,
even if meant everything-
lost.

I'm thankful I'm not yet lost.
I'm thankful I'm not yet found.



Thanks.