and so I have returned.
Not many things to update on, but then again, im not sure who reads this, so im not sure whats safe to post and whats not.
anyway, perhaps an update on the emotion status.
Thoughts have begun to form that I may be "in love" with one, and "Obsessed" over the other. however, as a friend so clearly pointed out one night while talking, it could be that I simply have a defense mechanism up and running, making me THINK i'm only obsessed over one...
well, that could work.
however, everything is at a stand still, and of course I have no clue as to whats going on otherwise with either parties. though one has lost his wallet.
Guitar wise, I have finished learning The Rain Song, and plan on getting my first electric guitar, a Les Paul, next weekend.
I am working 11-5 monday wednesday and friday this week, and planning on going to the dads tomorrow (sunday). hurrah!
I have the BIGGEST urge to get camping, just get out into the country. how I miss it, being able to walk around and not have buildings or roads, just trees or fields, all that stuff. I miss it.
fingers are freezing!
otherwise, things have been alright. I'm getting back my sunny side again, despite having had some disappointments recently., well, that can only be expected in my life and my high expectation of people. bad thing to have, but then again, it gives you the good fortune of being able to look at people with the best opinions. like giving them a 100% mark and giving them the chance to keep it at that. they do something wrong, then the 100% goes down. but until then, I think highly of people. I have that respect of people. but then again, after someone calling for my mother and asking if I was her son...umm, well, no, I'm her daughter Emily. no "sorry" or anything, just, well im calling to leave your mother a message....
blablabla. im a girl. I've heard myself on the phone before, and compared to how I look/act, i sound like a girl...i think.
makes you wonder...
I will admit now: I am a lonely person. I guarantee that I will not get together with any friends of mine over march break. I will see them in the Pro, but nothing more. i've told People to drop by, but they dont (of course. I'm a horrible entertainer, I'm not an interesting person unless you are into the things I'm into, and if not, I'm not the person who hang out with. I guess a lot of people just dont care, so there you go.) lol! there i go, blaming everyone else. I need to get out more. I make the effort once in a while, but otherwise I'm a hermit who works at the conveniant store across the street. I'm a hard person to get out of their hole. people need to encourage me! I'm stuborn and extremely sensitive...lol. yes, I'm aware that some people I know disagree, but I am. I'm paranoid, and it takes time for me to put trust in people, lots of time and certain deeds. I'm an observer, eavesdropper, etc etc. I go by how people act, so it takes time with me.
I analyze things too much.
whats the point of this? nothing, just that I'm lonely and wish people would surprise me and drop by or something. even email me! i dont care, i just want someone to at least TRY to contact me. thats me and my preferred stubornity and isolation.
anyway, 11:24. I am D/L Rejected, of course, need to see the rest of it. and am thinking of d/l Pablo Francisco as well. so friggen funny! Love it!
wide-awake, so many different emotions and thoughts going through my system, and I wish I could get it all down on paper, or something, but I have no clue how to translate it at all. I wish i could tap this energy, but I can't find the right spot so that it would come out right, just perfect. nothing is perfect with me, i suppose.
sigh
I'm such a hopeless romantic. I should really give up on it, since no one will ever want to sweep ME off my feet, of all people. I want to drop it, but I'm obsessed with the idea of love. I'm the bohemian who hasn't been in love before. lol! I am so Christian from moulin rouge, horrible resemblance but its true. I love the idea of Truth, Beauty and Love.
gasp
Queen! they did that song! the show must go on! Man, i can't believe I just clued into these lyrics now
inside my heart is breaking, my make up may be flaking, but my smile stays on, something like that.
wow.
anyway, I believe that shall be all for tonight. so, this hopeless bohemian romantic says goodnight, and keep watching the stars.
not for spaceships or aliens, just enjoy them for what they are, far above us and out of reach, it seems.
Not many things to update on, but then again, im not sure who reads this, so im not sure whats safe to post and whats not.
anyway, perhaps an update on the emotion status.
Thoughts have begun to form that I may be "in love" with one, and "Obsessed" over the other. however, as a friend so clearly pointed out one night while talking, it could be that I simply have a defense mechanism up and running, making me THINK i'm only obsessed over one...
well, that could work.
however, everything is at a stand still, and of course I have no clue as to whats going on otherwise with either parties. though one has lost his wallet.
Guitar wise, I have finished learning The Rain Song, and plan on getting my first electric guitar, a Les Paul, next weekend.
I am working 11-5 monday wednesday and friday this week, and planning on going to the dads tomorrow (sunday). hurrah!
I have the BIGGEST urge to get camping, just get out into the country. how I miss it, being able to walk around and not have buildings or roads, just trees or fields, all that stuff. I miss it.
fingers are freezing!
otherwise, things have been alright. I'm getting back my sunny side again, despite having had some disappointments recently., well, that can only be expected in my life and my high expectation of people. bad thing to have, but then again, it gives you the good fortune of being able to look at people with the best opinions. like giving them a 100% mark and giving them the chance to keep it at that. they do something wrong, then the 100% goes down. but until then, I think highly of people. I have that respect of people. but then again, after someone calling for my mother and asking if I was her son...umm, well, no, I'm her daughter Emily. no "sorry" or anything, just, well im calling to leave your mother a message....
blablabla. im a girl. I've heard myself on the phone before, and compared to how I look/act, i sound like a girl...i think.
makes you wonder...
I will admit now: I am a lonely person. I guarantee that I will not get together with any friends of mine over march break. I will see them in the Pro, but nothing more. i've told People to drop by, but they dont (of course. I'm a horrible entertainer, I'm not an interesting person unless you are into the things I'm into, and if not, I'm not the person who hang out with. I guess a lot of people just dont care, so there you go.) lol! there i go, blaming everyone else. I need to get out more. I make the effort once in a while, but otherwise I'm a hermit who works at the conveniant store across the street. I'm a hard person to get out of their hole. people need to encourage me! I'm stuborn and extremely sensitive...lol. yes, I'm aware that some people I know disagree, but I am. I'm paranoid, and it takes time for me to put trust in people, lots of time and certain deeds. I'm an observer, eavesdropper, etc etc. I go by how people act, so it takes time with me.
I analyze things too much.
whats the point of this? nothing, just that I'm lonely and wish people would surprise me and drop by or something. even email me! i dont care, i just want someone to at least TRY to contact me. thats me and my preferred stubornity and isolation.
anyway, 11:24. I am D/L Rejected, of course, need to see the rest of it. and am thinking of d/l Pablo Francisco as well. so friggen funny! Love it!
wide-awake, so many different emotions and thoughts going through my system, and I wish I could get it all down on paper, or something, but I have no clue how to translate it at all. I wish i could tap this energy, but I can't find the right spot so that it would come out right, just perfect. nothing is perfect with me, i suppose.
sigh
I'm such a hopeless romantic. I should really give up on it, since no one will ever want to sweep ME off my feet, of all people. I want to drop it, but I'm obsessed with the idea of love. I'm the bohemian who hasn't been in love before. lol! I am so Christian from moulin rouge, horrible resemblance but its true. I love the idea of Truth, Beauty and Love.
gasp
Queen! they did that song! the show must go on! Man, i can't believe I just clued into these lyrics now
inside my heart is breaking, my make up may be flaking, but my smile stays on, something like that.
wow.
anyway, I believe that shall be all for tonight. so, this hopeless bohemian romantic says goodnight, and keep watching the stars.
not for spaceships or aliens, just enjoy them for what they are, far above us and out of reach, it seems.
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