was?

Was he really "Crushed" when I turned away?
I couldn't think
See
hear
I was seeing in perriferal, nothing else.... how could I see him?

Why don't I have a choice when it comes to time? Wouldn't it be nice... I wouldn't have to commit to a day I didn't like. I could go back to a good day whenever I wanted. I could skip this horrible day and go to tomorrow. But why can't I just skip this part?

Oh, coffee house. I miss thee. I want another coffee house, big time, with Tellstory in it, because that's...that. Tellstory, man, it was the first LIVE music I had heard... other than Patricks band, but that doesn't count, I was only nine then. i don't even remember it, really, other than the one picture of him on stage with his Classic Les Paul.... that i might have gotten if he didn't have to sell it to pay rent at the age of 16.... dumbass....

frig.

happy? YES! Today was a GOOD day! oh boy oh boy. Lunch was nice, third was different..
and my fingers hurt. Why? GUITAR. I'm playing a lot now, don't even know why. whenever I'm around it, pick it up, go, it's... not usual, compared to how the summer was. Maybe being forced to play a saxophone in the morning and paint a picture everyday brought out the most creativity I've had in a while. I guess it was there all along, just asleep and hiding... or something.

Bought a book today. Everything is Illuminated. alright. another book. I haven't even gotten halfway through House of Leaves yet, i can't focus.

I think I have ADD... or something.

anyway, im tired, time to goooo
CIAO