Love like this keeps us warm

what do you do when your thoughts are faster than light?

I'm so crazy tonight! I've lost it! I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, and I'm Downloading the Polyphonic Spree, ELO, and i'm looking up stuff, and man!
I have this huge thirst for knowledge, for something! Feed my brain! Everything is whirling around! I need to make an appointment in guidance tomorrow, to talk about school, etc etc, i need to listen to this amazing beautiful music-
wait, woh, whats this feeling? my god.... no, nope, don't jinx it em, you'll jinx it, think of the worst, then you can't be disappointed, right?
but man, i'm getting excited by it. what is this foriegn thing? i know it, I think... maybe... why is it there? Is it coming back to me? It's been so long, I barely recognized it as-
WOH, this sound?! this is music?! someone wrote this?! Can I do this?
I need to read this book, this awesome book, everything is Illuminated-
Jazz tomorrow! I can play again!
I love! I can feel happy! God I feel so happy! I could sob right now for this stupid feeling in me! why am i so fucking happy?
because I've been exposed again! I saw something-
today was such a shitty day to start. nothing good came, nothing was there, but wha? i'm happy still?
goes to show-
OH MAN! Jamie and I went to the Nurse at school today, just to see about this whole "Nurse" thing, and it was awesome! I got a frisbee! and a magnet! And Fun-ness! WOH! SEX FRISBEE! grooooooovin!
holy shit...

I'm stupid tonight, waaaahahahaha. i love it.


my parents are coming back tonight too... another hour or so, and they'll be back, no more being alone. good thing? sure, why not?...
maybe I can survive on my own. Tonight I can, at least. hey, good!

breath

i like it when this happens