ah, shit

I could never get over the bullshit that made up you.
I still can't believe I never saw it, a mound of shit that tall.
I can't believe that I actually regret knowing someone. i never thought i would.
You are my biggest regret.
I wish our gross situation never happened.

One thing I never got over was how you suggested we try something, and support it by saying Sigmund thought everything should try it! I can't BELIEVE you backed yourself up with THAT. thats stupid!
I never wanted to sleep with a book, and thats all you tried to be. you just regurgitated things you read, philisophies from someone else. You never thought up anything on your own.
and you thought I was young and stupid! you, the fool obsessed with getting older and wanting to marry, like the rest of your buddies! The idiot too desperate for the ideal life that you didn't give a shit who you married. How dare you say I'm foolish. You're just another idiot in the world who can't think for himself. and I'm sorry if you can't take it, all the things I say, rude, smarted, whatever. At least I think for myself, and dont use the words of some long dead scientist to support a New position. at least I'm honest. honesty is real. you're not.

I can't believe I did that with you. I can't believe myself! I wish I could cut that part of my life out, but I can't. I wish I could just erase your image forever. but I CANT.

so fuck you and your dillusions.

You're a horrible singer.


The reason I made myself think of you
Isn't because I miss you.
I couldn't care less if you died.
It's about time I assess this fuck up.
It's about time I weed this garden.
But a few minutes ago I realized
that you were a coward.
If you loved me, why'd you leave?
If you loved me, Why didn't you fight?
If you loved me, how was it so hard
to face the facts
and stand up for yourself?
If I am so great,
Why did you leave me behind?
You've got an ego so bright
I can't see myself anymore.
Think you're so sweet,
you can win me back with a simple wave,
a little bit of sorrow.
I'm not your baby,
if you couldn't tell by my apathy.
how dare you make me so careless for people.
How dare you make me regret my decisions.
How dare you put yourself on a pedestal
and beg for me to kneel.
kiss your own fucking feet.
it's time you learned to bend over.