And I just figured it out.

So there is an issue with being Celibate, and still in love, and that is the Lack of an Outlet. Physically.
So, maybe all this pent up emotion is starting to find it's own way of getting out.
and I've been so busy with just trying to deal with it, that I forgot about the OUTLET part of it all...
and now I'm picking up on it again. I've been thinking in poems, i've been writing some of them DOWN, and now I'm trying to use it all for music again, I'm moving around more...
I'm doing something... or, getting started on it.

all because I've just got too much love.
What a laugh.
too bad it might be true.

I mean, how many people do I love? Have I loved? still love now. miss.
it gets pent up.

oh, to be alone. by choice.
Sometimes it's hard.