you put a gun in my hands and you hide from my eyes
I think this is the only way to get it all out.
How does a person just DO something? Spur of the moment? but then, wouldn't your conscience come in at some point too? wouldn't you stop after taking a moments thought and realizing there was going to be an aftershock from this?
Does anyone do that anymore?
I'm so tired. Good day, bad day, Bitter-angry day, Happy day... thats why I'm tired. my mood has changed so much it's exhausted me. I'm tired. I want to sleep, but i know, in my head, I have homework... but I also know it won't get done. Early bird's came out today... im screwed. I'm going to fail a class, not graduate, stay ANOTHER FUCKING YEAR IN A PLACE I CAN'T STAND TO BE IN ANYMORE, not go to where i want to go-
oh yeah. I'm not going to York next monday anymore, Like I thought I was. Mom changed her mind. Love you too, mom.-
and fail at life. well, that's what it feels like. so little time. all i want to do is... all i want to say, feel.... think about... im too tired to handle this. someone please make a pill that will solve this. I mean, everything else comes in a pill, why can't a solution for a fucked up life be put in one too? why can't i have my old family back, a real mom and dad and brother set up without all of this bullshit by taking just one pill a day? why can't I feel safe within my own body with the help of a pill? why can't I have the perfect life in a pill? oh, you mean, those are just supplements? Diet pills? Anti-depressants? anti anti anti i need an anti-LIFE pill right now. Anti-Josh pill. Anti-Mom pill. Anti-Gord pill. Anti-School pill.
i need an organization supplement! that could work! blablablablablablablabla
fucking life fucking sucks and i fucking hate it tonight like i did last night when i heard you gord YES i heard you talking about me i hate everything tonight i want everything to GO AWAY i dont want to be in my "home" because it's NOT my home i have no home such a place does not exist for I Emily Norah Engel I have no home life love nothing nothing is what i have nothing is what i get nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing im so tired of everything and i cant believe im even CONSIDERING all of these rediculous things now and taking the wrongs things the wrong way and the right things the wrong way and everything is wrong in my life FIX IT
How does a person just DO something? Spur of the moment? but then, wouldn't your conscience come in at some point too? wouldn't you stop after taking a moments thought and realizing there was going to be an aftershock from this?
Does anyone do that anymore?
I'm so tired. Good day, bad day, Bitter-angry day, Happy day... thats why I'm tired. my mood has changed so much it's exhausted me. I'm tired. I want to sleep, but i know, in my head, I have homework... but I also know it won't get done. Early bird's came out today... im screwed. I'm going to fail a class, not graduate, stay ANOTHER FUCKING YEAR IN A PLACE I CAN'T STAND TO BE IN ANYMORE, not go to where i want to go-
oh yeah. I'm not going to York next monday anymore, Like I thought I was. Mom changed her mind. Love you too, mom.-
and fail at life. well, that's what it feels like. so little time. all i want to do is... all i want to say, feel.... think about... im too tired to handle this. someone please make a pill that will solve this. I mean, everything else comes in a pill, why can't a solution for a fucked up life be put in one too? why can't i have my old family back, a real mom and dad and brother set up without all of this bullshit by taking just one pill a day? why can't I feel safe within my own body with the help of a pill? why can't I have the perfect life in a pill? oh, you mean, those are just supplements? Diet pills? Anti-depressants? anti anti anti i need an anti-LIFE pill right now. Anti-Josh pill. Anti-Mom pill. Anti-Gord pill. Anti-School pill.
i need an organization supplement! that could work! blablablablablablablabla
fucking life fucking sucks and i fucking hate it tonight like i did last night when i heard you gord YES i heard you talking about me i hate everything tonight i want everything to GO AWAY i dont want to be in my "home" because it's NOT my home i have no home such a place does not exist for I Emily Norah Engel I have no home life love nothing nothing is what i have nothing is what i get nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing im so tired of everything and i cant believe im even CONSIDERING all of these rediculous things now and taking the wrongs things the wrong way and the right things the wrong way and everything is wrong in my life FIX IT
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