Technicalities

Go ahead and laugh, if for whatever reason this makes you laugh, but sometimes I feel I have to explain why I blog so frequently.
well,
there are some people who are verbal communicators, or, who are at least more verbally litarate and fluent than they are when writing or typing. I am NOT one of those people. I stutter, mumble, become overly sarcastic, and therefore, am not taken seriously on serious matters, because I talk "weird". therefore, I'm left with a lot on my mind, and nothing coming out of my mouth. a person explodes after a while. I blog.
Also, I hardly thing of this blog as a means of communication to others. it's more of a communication from one part of my head to the other. Its me talking to myself, making sense of myself, confronting myself (about others sometimes), and yeah... thats why I blog. so much right now, because it's summer, and I'm left with NOTHING but my thoughts. so, I need to get through them all, sort through them, which means revisiting others and all that jazz, it's a complicated business, you know? it's rough.
thats why I blog a lot.
so, if ever I had to explain myself, I have. I'm not talking to other people in this thing, I'm just... talking to myself, and keeping a journal about it.

so there you go.

meanwhile (laugh)

I know whats haunting me from last night, and whatever. I know what it is. I just can't figure out why it's bugging me at this point in time. Summer? Joel Problems (he still hasn't called or anything)? I don't know. but it's back from last year. last summer. maybe thats it. an Anniversary thing. well, either way, it's getting to me a lot. well, not a lot. I'm not breaking down or anything...

I don't know.

so much for making sense of myself. It's hot. I'm stuck indoors most of this summer. I'm stranded in stirling. so i'm left with last summer to live with, alone.

what do you do?