It's appreciated

I'm moving back home.
november, hopefully early november.

and I'm SORRY.

And you know what? here's why:

I'm miserable.
No one likes me.
No one likes my cat.
No one gives a shit.
everyone else giving me a hard time about it
I am more lonely than ever before
I want to be around people who DO like me, who APPRECIATE me a little more than just using me to get to my room mate.

if you can't handle it, forget you read it and think of it as a giant lie.
LIELIELIE
Well it's true.
I'm miserable as fuck.
I will work two more weeks at the bakery. then I will start packing my shit up again. I'll leave some of it here.
Appreciate that. you owe it.
when you sit on the couch in this apartment, remember it came from ME, and I didn't have to leave it here. I could take all this back with me if I wanted.
But I won't.
Because thats how I apologize for "bailing"
Because thats CLEARLY what I'm doing.
Names off the lease. or it will be. I'll pay for november. and technically they have my last months rent.
and then im gone. back home where people actually wonder about me. people have actually asked where I went to! why I left!
Look at that! complete strangers give a shit about me! Someone Cares!
so obviously I'm going back there.
Oakville sucks. frankly. stores are nice. thats it. I'm going back to where I can see the stars at night, and my family, and my car, and the job I was good at. Because I was DAMN good at what I did there, no matter how annoying people got, they're just as bad everywhere, and I would rather work in that store with those great people than this fake yuppy city full.

so fuck it all. I'm going home. and I hate disappointing my mother and father and everyone who invested in me being here, and I'm going to pay them back...
but this city is sucking the life out of me

so stop bothering me about it. find someone else to bother. I'm sick of this bullshit. I'd rather take bullshit from Gord, at least I know I'm a LOT smarter than him and that I can just work my way around him.