the game plan is to win
Roadtrip 2005 is now in the planning process with Josh and Mike (from england). huzzah!
looking for a van now for Josh to buy. and trying to get a hold of Angus, to see if he wants in or not.
the creepy part is.... it's starting to sound like my one story... almost.... hohoooo
life for me this past week... it's been an off week. I've come home from school feeling that depressed feeling again, something that I guess will never go away. in a small way, It's been productive. i've made a brand new Good Friend, Mike Dickenson from England! HO! yeah, he's my new buddy! So, a new friend. Plans are being made about finding a van for a roadtrip with those two guys, possibly Angus if he wants in, so thats now on the mind.
but I really need to get going in World History. I have to come up with a Topic for one essay, get started on another, read my Ghandi stuff, do readings, etc etc...
i need to get productive in art, but the urge is never there anymore. Music is music. I feel dead in that room now. It's just this bitter place I go... like my home. it's my house, only without my things, and the occassional joy of privacy. I'm finding myself getting annoyed with some people, mostly graeme. I dont know why, i just am. I'm not happy about it, but its happening. i dont even know why... i just feel really pissed off in that place sometimes.
when i'm not doing anything, mind you. if im talking to emma or josh or mike or kirsten, im okay. but when im left to think by myself, all i can think of is how I wish i wasn't alone like this.
but am i even alone, i wonder? i dont know.
i got a bigger cheque than normal tonight. 185.85$. normally it's 129 something... so where did this extra money come from? well, hey! more money! but why???
my friendship with someone is beginning to turn somewhere. dont know where exactly, but it's a road I've never considered before, really, or never actually gone down. it's frustrating at times, when I keep thinking something else without being able to help it. I almost wanted to kiss him today. I even had to think NOT to put my head on his shoulder. i'm restraining myself. I dont know. Maybe I shouldn't. he doesn't seem to. If thats where it's going, then I suppose I should give it a try before I decide if it's too painful or frustrating to stand for another year.
Coffee house, NOV 25th. acoustic set now. no electric set. alas....
NOV18th, Art trip to Ottawa. I'll hang out with Mike that day. he's awesome!
in other words, I'm the same as ever. I'm not changing much this year, not yet at least. things are being added, but nothing is being taken away. good, i guess...
you are what you love, not what loves you
looking for a van now for Josh to buy. and trying to get a hold of Angus, to see if he wants in or not.
the creepy part is.... it's starting to sound like my one story... almost.... hohoooo
life for me this past week... it's been an off week. I've come home from school feeling that depressed feeling again, something that I guess will never go away. in a small way, It's been productive. i've made a brand new Good Friend, Mike Dickenson from England! HO! yeah, he's my new buddy! So, a new friend. Plans are being made about finding a van for a roadtrip with those two guys, possibly Angus if he wants in, so thats now on the mind.
but I really need to get going in World History. I have to come up with a Topic for one essay, get started on another, read my Ghandi stuff, do readings, etc etc...
i need to get productive in art, but the urge is never there anymore. Music is music. I feel dead in that room now. It's just this bitter place I go... like my home. it's my house, only without my things, and the occassional joy of privacy. I'm finding myself getting annoyed with some people, mostly graeme. I dont know why, i just am. I'm not happy about it, but its happening. i dont even know why... i just feel really pissed off in that place sometimes.
when i'm not doing anything, mind you. if im talking to emma or josh or mike or kirsten, im okay. but when im left to think by myself, all i can think of is how I wish i wasn't alone like this.
but am i even alone, i wonder? i dont know.
i got a bigger cheque than normal tonight. 185.85$. normally it's 129 something... so where did this extra money come from? well, hey! more money! but why???
my friendship with someone is beginning to turn somewhere. dont know where exactly, but it's a road I've never considered before, really, or never actually gone down. it's frustrating at times, when I keep thinking something else without being able to help it. I almost wanted to kiss him today. I even had to think NOT to put my head on his shoulder. i'm restraining myself. I dont know. Maybe I shouldn't. he doesn't seem to. If thats where it's going, then I suppose I should give it a try before I decide if it's too painful or frustrating to stand for another year.
Coffee house, NOV 25th. acoustic set now. no electric set. alas....
NOV18th, Art trip to Ottawa. I'll hang out with Mike that day. he's awesome!
in other words, I'm the same as ever. I'm not changing much this year, not yet at least. things are being added, but nothing is being taken away. good, i guess...
you are what you love, not what loves you
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