turbulent stills

So last night I went to see Jesus Christ Superstar.
It was good.
I recruited yet another person wanting to go see Radiohead. so far, looks like he's in the running, unless Angus happens to be able to go again, or Mike calls me back.
if neither of those do, then Scott Giroux will probably get the ticket.
and to toronto I go.
back to the musical...
it was good. very good. Overwhelming in many points. they did better than we did with West Side Story, seeing's how our band fucked up big time.
Fairbrother wasn't involved with this one, and it was obvious.
thank god.
but seeing this musical, nevertheless, made me miss West Side...
Actually, it made me miss the stage in general. To have an audiences attention...
save for those few jerks sitting across from me. assholes. good thing they left...
but I miss the stage. Seeing the musical made me wish I was still playing Guitar, still writing songs, or at least learning them.
I miss a lot of things. and people.
Sounds like Josh might actually think about me once in a blue moon, or so Sherry told me last night.
I don't know how I'll handle seeing him, should I ever again... I've got to say, while I Know that I'm in love with, well, one person mentioned in this post, I have to say that if I ever loved anyone else almost as much, it would have to be another person mentioned in this post.
and its kind of odd.
I see one of the all the time, and the other I never see. so, i really don't know how to handle seeing him again. I hope I don't go all weird like I do sometimes...

but we shall see, shant we?

I miss a lot of things.
I am very sad over it.
ha.

I just read through this.
I'm stupid