"EMILY, TURN THAT DOWN, please"
bah
start of the day again
yup again
it's really just the same day over and over again, same shit, same day, different order... sometimes. nothing new. school surprises me, but then again, it's supposed to. so it's following the rules.
everything is doing what it's planned to do. everyone reacts how they're supposed to, everyone talks like they're supposed to, no one has caught me off-guard today. no one's gotten to see me today.
just emily.
bah
stupid day
bah
sleep sleep sleep sleep is far far away. i felt like shit today. at first it was a normal day, but after lunch it just turned all to hell. i got into the most depressed mood i've had during the day in a while. just, out of no where, down again. I'll blame josh for trying to sabotage the whole Road Trip plan by making his own road trip to race me with.... even though I likely wont be able to go on a road trip, since he was supposed to get the van, and i was supposed to decorate it... in other words, i cant without him. asshole. that pissed me off, but otherwise i dont know. what got me do shitty today? stupid school!
Music test today too. Intervals. i felt stupid again. couldn't remember anything from last week. duh. i have no memory of anything. i hate school. i hate everything right now. all but one thing, and it's so far out of reach.
but this morning, i had the best nap ever on the way to school, on the bus. and the same thing on the way home. i just put my headphones on, and was out like a light. it was nice, really. i liked it. i can always sleep well in a moving vehicle. that's what makes me a great traveller, bad driver. i can fall asleep ANYWHERE. anywhere at all.
that reminds me, Emmas house saturday night! huzzah! i have to work until 11, but everyone who shows up is going to come and get me anyway... hopefully. yup. i like it.
i wish i could rock at guitar. i wish i could get that stuff. i wish it could come to me like moving blinking. i wish, man, i wish. i might be able to get things out better, but nah... i just zone out... dont think, just feel... stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid typing is fun stupid stupid stupid
boredom! sleepy! ah, sleep, i want you now
start of the day again
yup again
it's really just the same day over and over again, same shit, same day, different order... sometimes. nothing new. school surprises me, but then again, it's supposed to. so it's following the rules.
everything is doing what it's planned to do. everyone reacts how they're supposed to, everyone talks like they're supposed to, no one has caught me off-guard today. no one's gotten to see me today.
just emily.
bah
stupid day
bah
sleep sleep sleep sleep is far far away. i felt like shit today. at first it was a normal day, but after lunch it just turned all to hell. i got into the most depressed mood i've had during the day in a while. just, out of no where, down again. I'll blame josh for trying to sabotage the whole Road Trip plan by making his own road trip to race me with.... even though I likely wont be able to go on a road trip, since he was supposed to get the van, and i was supposed to decorate it... in other words, i cant without him. asshole. that pissed me off, but otherwise i dont know. what got me do shitty today? stupid school!
Music test today too. Intervals. i felt stupid again. couldn't remember anything from last week. duh. i have no memory of anything. i hate school. i hate everything right now. all but one thing, and it's so far out of reach.
but this morning, i had the best nap ever on the way to school, on the bus. and the same thing on the way home. i just put my headphones on, and was out like a light. it was nice, really. i liked it. i can always sleep well in a moving vehicle. that's what makes me a great traveller, bad driver. i can fall asleep ANYWHERE. anywhere at all.
that reminds me, Emmas house saturday night! huzzah! i have to work until 11, but everyone who shows up is going to come and get me anyway... hopefully. yup. i like it.
i wish i could rock at guitar. i wish i could get that stuff. i wish it could come to me like moving blinking. i wish, man, i wish. i might be able to get things out better, but nah... i just zone out... dont think, just feel... stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid typing is fun stupid stupid stupid
boredom! sleepy! ah, sleep, i want you now
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